Totems, Guides and Therianthropy (oh my)

*May need updating

Originally Published/Created by Amelia Nightside
February 5, 2014

I have found that many of those who are newly awakening, or even those already aware of a kin-type, often seem to be confused by what exactly Therianthropy is. Equally so, there seems to be a blurring of lines between Therianthropy, Spirit (animal) Guides, and Totem animals.

I would like to use this to explain to everyone the difference(s) between the three.

Basics

Define – First, I will define these terms, and then, if I feel it is needed, I will further explain the differences between each.

Therianthropy – This is an identity. Individuals who identify as a non-human [Earthly] animal are considered Therians. This identity most commonly is held psychologically and/or spiritually. This identity is often experienced via Shifts and species ( or sometimes body) dysphoria. This identity is often expressed via voluntary or involuntary behaviors, personal preferences and body modifications which may reflect that of their non-human identity.

What is a shift?

http://therian.wikia.com/wiki/Therianthropic_Shifting_types

What is Species/Body Dysphoria?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Species_dysphoria

Body dysphoria is used to describe general feelings of sadness or an uncomfortable mood. It can include feeling great anxiety, irritability or restlessness in relation to one’s physical body.

Body dysmorphic disorder, on the other hand, occurs when you have a preoccupation about some quality in your appearance.

http://www.askmen.com/sports/bodybuilding_150/190_fitness_tip.html

Totems

  1. An animal, plant, or natural object serving among certain tribal or traditional peoples as the emblem of a clan or family and sometimes revered as its founder, ancestor, or guardian.

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/totem

  1. A totem is any natural or mythical animal to whom you feel a close connection during your life or some particular period of your life. The energy of the totem animal speaks to you in some way that is relevant to your own personality or circumstance in life.

https://crystal-cure.com/article-totems.html

More on Totems:

http://therian-guide.com/?page=Discovery

http://www.firelion.org/raven/ahwwfaq/ahwwfaq02.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Totem

Spirit Guide – 

a term used by the Western tradition of Spiritualist Churches, mediums, and psychics to describe an entity that remains a disincarnate spirit in order to act as a guide or protector to a living incarnated human being.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spirit_guide

A spirit guide can be an incorporeal, once human, individual, or a non-human creature (hence Spirit Animal).

Spirit Animal Definition

Spirit animals are typically associated with traditional as well as modern Western shamanic practices. During initiations or shamanic journeys, the shaman would find one or several animals that she or another person is associated with. Traditionally, the spirit animal is used for guidance.

Think of your spirit animal as a guardian spirit or spirit guide. It can play the role of protector and provides guidance. It’s like a “personal guide or protector” that has a personal affinity with the person it’s associated with.

Power Animals

In addition, the spirit of the animal could unite with the person it “chose” in more personal ways and one will often find similarities in traits of personality, characteristics, and synchronicity between the two. As such, the power or essence of the animal can be felt or communicated. In that sense, spirit animals can also be referred to as “power animals”.
http://www.spiritanimal.info/

Power Animals should never be confused as a Kin- or Theriotype. Power Animals are interpreted and expressed through humanized, often romanticized, traits and characteristics assigned as being related to that particular animal (even if naturally, such does not actually apply to the real animal). It is a metaphor, a representation, not an identity. I.E. – The fox is sly. The snake cunning. The bear is strong. The owl is wise.

Real Differences

Compare and Contrasts

One’s Therian-animal or, Theriotype, IS their identity, it IS what they feel they are, and often who they are integrally and internally, at their core.

A Spirit Animal is a type of guide, it can be a totem, but not all totems are also spirit guides.

Totems aren’t always permanent, though they can be, and will leave once their message has been received, or they’ve accomplished what they needed to.

A Spirit Guide (as an animal – per context of this article) and a Totem, are completely separate entities from one’s self, if they are entities at all and not just metaphoric symbols. A Theriotype is not seperate from a Therian, not metaphoric and is not a symbol, message or messenger in any way shape or form.

Often, a person can experience something like a shift in related to their Spirit Guide or Totem; This however, is a case of the entity trying to communicate or teach you something. A shift of this sort likely will not be recurring over a long period of time.  More commonly, these entities appear to you via dream, meditative vision or by drawing such animals to be around your everyday life (this is not something that usually lasts forever, but can come and go if the totem and/or guide remains yours for an extended period of time/for life). – In short, there will be signs (as vague as that sounds).

Side Note –

It is possible to have the same type of creature as your theriotype and a totem or guide. It is important, however, to remember that a Guide/Totem is not YOU. While your Theriotype is you.

More on Spirit Guides, Totems & Therianthropy (were/as related):

https://hermitsjourney.wordpress.com/2011/11/28/some-thoughts-on-spirits-guides-and-totems/

http://www.monstrous.com/forum/index.php?topic=13509.0

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Shane—Some People Aren’t People on the Inside

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Some People Aren’t People on the Inside: Online Connectivity and Otherkin Subjectivities

by Margaret Shane

[Shane, Margaret. 2014. “Some People Aren’t People on the Inside.” In Educational, Psychological, and Behavioral Considerations in Niche Online Communities, edited by Vivek Venkatesh, 260–71. Hershey, PA: Information Science Reference.]

  • Otherkin identity queers ontology
  • Otherkin as a “flow of desire” rather than marginal subculture
  • Onto-Normativity—A compound term of art comprised of the prefix “onto” derived from “on­tology” referring to philosophical considerations of reality and being; and “normativity” referring to predominant norms. In this context, the term points to habits of thought governing reality prevalent in contemporary Western society.”

ABSTRACT

So-called alternative on line niche communities are prone to ridicule, derision, and dismissal owing to the challenges they pose to prevailing onto-normativities, those ingrained modes of thought that dictate how we describe reality. Relying on the divergent approaches of classic SWOT analysis and post-structuralist…

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General Lexicon

This is an informational/educational piece I attempted to put together some time ago. Given the evolution of language, as well as my own general feeling of always needing to improve, edit and update, this piece is not presented as an end-all be-all and may be overdue for some edits, modifications and updates.

If there’s anything in particular that catches your eye – something you want to know more about, or a definition you’d like to see modified or something of that sort, please feel free to comment. I will consider all critiques but I do not guarantee that I will use them.

 

General Lexicon

Here is a list of terms, and their respective definitions, that you may see used commonly around the greater community as a whole.

**Please do not reproduce or edit this document without due credit to and/or asking it’s creator (Amelia) for permission. **

The majority of these terms are defined in my own words (Amelia), any that are not (or I felt needed a bit more support and information for it), have their source listed. 

Therian – 1. An individual who identifies spiritually and/or psychologically as a non-human [Earthly] animal, extinct and extant.   2. Therian, in common use, may also refer to an individual of a subclass of mammals, Theria (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theria); This definition is not generally used in the Community.   

 –   “Therianthropy”, in common use, refers broadly to a metamorphisis of human and animal (http://www.reference.com/browse/therianthropy); However, this is not generally the context used in the Therian community, instead Therianthropy refers, in this context, to an individual’s personal Identity of being physically human and animal internally (primarily being of spiritual and/or psychological/neurological speculated origins).

Otherkin – An individual who identifies spiritually and/or psychologically as non-human. Generally this may refer to Mythological creatures, can also be used as an umbrella term for all creatures, as well as other entities (plants, inanimate objects, etc).

Animal-Kin – A lack-for-better term introduced to identify and describe non-earthly animal-identified Otherkin. After it was no longer accepted to use “Therian” to apply to all animals and animal-creatures.

Therio-Mythic – Also a term used to describe non-Earthly animal kintypes.

Phytanthrope – Also termed, Green-kin or Plant-kin; An indiviudal who identifies as a non-animal plant.

Therio-type – The animal a Therian identifies as.

Kin-type – The creature/entity/object an Otherkin identifies as.

Were- – a prefix meaning “man”. In terms of the Therian and Otherkin communities, Were was once another term for Therian, but was followed by the individual’s therio-type (ex. were-cat, were-wolf, were-deer). Such use has been falling out of fashion. Also (more commonly now) used for Otherkin who identify as anthropomorphic and sometimes shape shifting, man-creatures of myth and folklore (such as, but not limited to, the werewolf etc).

Shift – A sensation which expresses one’s therio/kin-type. Given the power of the human mind, consciously and subconsciously, it is considered possible for non-‘Kin identified persons to will or otherwise experience shifts of some level or degree. Most ‘Kin/Therians if they experience shifts at all (not all do) experience their first shifts involuntarily and learn to recognize triggers (if any exist) or otherwise control shifts to varying degrees.

  • Phantom Phantom Limb; A term taken and modified from the medical community, is the sensation of having physical limbs where physical limbs do not exist (medically this is a physical nerve reaction which causes sensation felt after amputation of a limb). Some phantom limbs can be felt alongside, as if on top of, existing physical limbs.

    The official term for the sort of limbs that Therians/Otherkin experience is Supernumerary Phantom Limbs  which are phantom limbs one experiences where no such limb has physically existed before, this version of Phantom Limb or Shift is still considered a primarily psychological phenononon by the “professionals”. Shifts of this sort may not be limited to obvious limbs and can come about as sensations of fur, scales, etc or specific organs such as eyes, teeth and claws.

    There are an incredibly small number of individual Therians/Otherkin (actually one to my current knowledge) who, through use of an MRI was able to confirm neurological responses in regards to these phantom limb sensations.
  • Mental – The sensation of having the mindset of one’s Theri/Kin-type. This often is described as more instinctual, basic, animalistic and even carnal-based (depending on one’s Kin/Theriotype).
    – This may or may not be accompanied by an observed
    Sensory shift where apparent basic senses (sight, hearing, smell, touch, taste) improve, worsen or otherwise alter. It is however generally considered impossible for such senses to alter beyond the physical capabilities of the human body.

    – There may be some speculation in regards to Clair-Senses/Abilities in relation to Sensory Shifts (as in Clair-audience, Clair-Sentience, Clairvoyance, etc.).

 

  • Astral – The sensation or experience of being in the form of one’s Therio/Kin-type while astrally projected, out of body or on another plane. (Bi-location and other forms of projecting included, though not officially “Astral” shifts. “Projection Shifts” may be more accurate, but is not an official term)
  • Aura – When one’s Aura, or “energy field” shifts into the form of one’s kin/theriotype. This may be accompanied by the sensation of phantom limbs and detectable (visible, for some) to those sensitive/aware to such things.
  • Shadow – Often mistakenly identified as Physical Shifting by those (if any) who witness it. This may be a form of Aura-Shifting. When light is low and/or visibility is questionable, the outline of one’s body (their shadow or silhouette) may appear to morph into that of their therio/kin-type.
  • Dream – Being one’s therio/kin type in their dream.
  • Cameo – Any shift which represents a different type than what the individual identifies as.
  • Empathy – The sensitivity to energy, this primarily being emotions. An Empathy(/ic) shift is much like a cameo shift, except that it is effected and influenced by others. (also Clairsentience)
  • Physical – Highly controversial. The physical morphing of a human body into the body of one’s type.

 

Dysmorphia – (Species) A conviction that one’s physical body is wrong. This is often accompanied with Dysphoria of varying severity.

Dysphoria is generally a feeling of unhappiness, discomfort and even disconnectedness (in this context, it is associated with one’s self [species or physical body].

Furry – An individual of the Furry Community and Fandom. The Furry Community is a culture involving anthropomorphic fictional characters created and chosen as one’s fictional identity, used in roleplay and expressed in many other artistic forms.

Multiple System – or “Multiple” for short is any individual body with more than one individual residing in it. The additional individuals are sometimes referred to as “Alters” or “Headmates”. Sometimes there is an “original” or “host” of the body, but this is not always the case. Individual cases where there is disorder in the “group” or it causes problem with normal societal functioning, are labeled as Disassociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder). It is possible for a system to exist in a healthy, cooperative state and not be labeled as “disorder”. Alters/Headmates may be the result of spiritual walk-ins or psychological creations, in some cases it is believed that one’s soul or psyche can literally divide itself and become multiple individual parts of their own right. This may be a result of trauma or other unknown and varied reasons. Alters/Headmates can sometimes be human or nonhuman while the body they reside in is indeed human. For this reason there is some mixing of members from the Multiple Community into the Therian and Otherkin communities. The state of being multiple is called “Multiplicity” or “Plurality”.

Fictionkin – Any individual who identifies as a character or creature from modern myths and entertainment medias. Not all Fictionkin identify as non-human characters and therefore, not all Fictionkin are Otherkin. A headmate within a Multiple System who is a Fictional character or creature is known as a Fictive.

Fluff – Something that is not apparently genuine (real, true). “Fluff” is also defined as an individual (usually self-identified ‘Kin or Therian) who is mislead, closed/refuses to learn and may be varyingly delusional (delusion is defined as holding beliefs or ideas despite evidence to the contrary – basically rejecting facts)

Poly- – Prefix meaning many.

  • -morph – Root word meaning form. An individual who identifies as Polymorph[ic] identifies as having multiple forms (Like a shape shifter). One can identify as a Polymorph who’s only true shifts are Cameo Shifts. Their “form” is fluid. One can also identify as a single entity or creature that has a few, often limited, other forms (Ex. an Angel may also have the form of a Dove and/or a Tree – I think of the Greek gods for other examples, they are represented by animals and objects but also take those forms. The Greek deities and similar creatures or entities can be considered Polymorphic).
  • -kin – Also -therian, -were; A Polykin Refers to an individual who has more than one type.

Contherianthrope – A therianthrope who’s animalistic side is so interwound into their human side the two are indistinguishable. A contherianthrope does not experience shifting but rather expresses a constant of both animal and human sides at the same time. Contherianthropes have been described as finding it very natural to use both human conceptualization/logic and native animal emotion/instinct, jointly, as combined factors in decisionmaking, dynamically blending each to add richness and insight to the overall process. (http://www.therianthropes.com/contherianthrope.htm) – In other words; Contherians constantly feel half Kinside and half human.

Suntherian – (also Vacillant) was a term invented by WordWolf to mean is a therian whose theriotype (primary or sole) is integrated into his baseline personality. That integration, however, does not prevent them from having minor fluctuations of mood, sensation or being that feel slightly more animal, or slightly less animal. (http://therian.wikia.com/wiki/Suntherian) – IOW Suntherians experience sliding shifts (though are also constantly shifted – feeling part Kintype and part human).

Anthropomorphic – resembling or made to resemble a human (http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/anthropomorphic) ; The Werewolf, in forms of entertainment and media is often depcited as an anthropomorphic , wolf-man, creature.

Feral – A term used in opposition to anthropomorphic. Ex. A Werewolf might be described as an anthropomorhic form, while a wolf would be feral form.

Vampire – Generally an individual who identifies a need for blood and/or metaphysical energies (non-physical -, life energy, Qi, Ki, Chi, Prana..) in order to maintain their all-around health, well-being and ability to function on a regular basis.

Vampire-Kin – An individual who identifies as the supernatural creature of myth, legend and folklore known as the vampire. Many Vampire-Kin seem not to identify a need to feed on blood or energy.

 

You might also find the following of interest:

Otherkin Lexicon, by Orion Scribner @Frameacloud.com

Otherkin Lexicon, by Orion Scribner – Mobile-Friendly Hosted by Yumpu.com

The Awakening – Preface (cont.?)

For more on this story, please take a look at the other links under the “The Awakening” category (preface, description, inspiration – the original draft).

 

A young woman, appearing to be in her mid to late 20s with light brown, straight hair, hazel eyes and lean body is standing on a ledge, her heart racing at finding herself in such a situation. She’s just outside a very large office window. Co-workers inside trying to coax her back in, the concern in their voices nearly bringing herself to tears. The on-lookers below, though small in number also have an air of concern and fear, “don’t do it, it’s not worth it, we still love you” they seem to collectively say, though the exact words never audible.

She jumps off the small ledge. She lands on her feet and a sharp pain enters the balls of her feet and runs up to the base of her spine. Instantly she is recoiled backwards and lands laying on her back on the sidewalk pavement. She looses consciousness.

Very quickly a young man of around the same age, sporting sleek, near-black hair – appearing bluish in shine, silver eyes and lightly tanned skin scoops her into his arms and runs off. He’s wearing a faded-black sweatshirt with a symbol like a jagged or roughly drawn ankh.

After some time she wakes to find herself in an unfamiliar bedroom of a foreign apartment.  The man notices her subtle movements as she regains consciousness and clarity.
Hey, sleeping beauty. How ya doin’, Christal?” He says and hands her a bowl of thick warm red liquid.
She feels stiff, Hungry and soar. She looks at him and lets out a bit of a groan.  She stares at the liquid.
What in the world are you feeding me, Sylas?”
Sylas laughs, “It’s blood. It’s mixed with a little tomato juice, ’cause there wasn’t much, but it should help you.
..and where exactly did you get this?”
Downstairs. There’s a butcher-shop below us, I applied there to work.  Apparnetly the owner is also the landlord. I told him I needed a job and a place to stay and he agreed. I also mentioned that I come from a very ethnic background, and in return for a slight cut in pay, we can have all of the blood he collects from the meat, every week.

 

My Awakening

This “blog” inspired by: http://youtu.be/kuSeQuptGBU – A Real Vampire on Awakening by Poorvamp.

My awakening wasn’t quite as quick in a single moment.. and apparently too long to post on YouTube XD

Real Vampirism

Not sure how old I was, but I was in middle school (between the ages of 11 and 14), my brother actually had a video game called Soul Reaver. This was my first, ever observed depiction of a vampire who both drank blood (while the main character was in the realm of the living) and “sucked souls” (while in the realm of the dead/ethreal) as it may be termed.. This both interested, and as a child who was frequently afraid of “what’s in the dark” without being able to describe or understand why or what, frightened me.

After an interesting dream, ( as briefly described here: https://www.facebook.com/notes/amelia-nightside/just-a-dream/168621253178277 ) The method I sought to combat my fear and uneasiness one insomniatic night was to learn. I got on the family computer and did a couple of web searches “Are vampires real?” and “Real Vampires” were what I remember searching for.

I clicked on the very first link at the top of the search list, which was an article by Inanna Arthen on Earthspirit.com. This article helped me a lot in combating my fears, but also opened my mind and eyes to some similarities I found. While I kind of scoffed at the idea of my being a vampire (simply because I had never had an interest in vampires of fiction, plus at this time, they were really only fiction to me still) I did find multiple people who shared similarities with the description I had found. Some were friends, some relatives, but the one most closely resembling the description was me, whether I wanted to admit it or not.

Around 13-14, I had my maternal and closest, most cherished grandmother pass away, a great aunt (paternal) (whom I wasn’t really in-the-know about) pass away and my father (protector, idol and best friend) was more or less ripped out of my life, at my hand, due to some personal demons of his being discovered. [1-2 years later my maternal grandfather also passed away. ]

At this time I had started becoming incredibly curious with spirituality and religion. My mother was looking for comfort and support in this way, and I tagged along out of sheer desire to learn. Everything was pretty well Christian based, but I was doing my own research on the side as well, asking as many questions as possible.

I was also beginning to stray a bit from mainstream ideals. I found myself on a web community for the “Gothic & Industrial lifestyles” in which I felt most at home. It wasn’t very long before I made a very close friend on that site. This friend introduced me, once again, to the world of Real Vampires via a webforum on this site.. Again, I didn’t think I would fit in at all , didn’t really care if I was one of them or not, but wanted to learn. My friend, during this time, also came out to me as a vampire, claimed he was empathic and made some subtle insinuations that this desire to learn wasn’t just innocent curiosity, and that I NEEDED to learn….

While I was socializing and learning a brother of mine and his small group of friends had begun dabbling in magicks and such. Some focused on basic energy manipulation, one went down the path of being a “dark” solitary witch (or so that’s how he made it out), they all dabbled a bit in “hunting” entities (such as evil spirits and the like. Purposely going into cemeteries and drawing out these entities). The “dark solitary witch” is the friend who, around this time began taking more of an interest in me and would sneak out of my brother’s room to come talk to me.

I never mentioned vampires to this guy, but discussed nearly everything else.

At this time I had been experiencing an increasing number of various paranormal(ish) phenomena. Anything from Dream travel, shared dreams, remote viewing, prophetic dreams, I perceived spirits and such entities more frequently and more intensely (sensing and seeing) .. It had gone on all my life as far as I can remember, but my awakening brought it on much stronger.

I also found myself experiencing incredible mood swings, with breakdowns (generally bouts of uncontrollable random crying, or an incredible urge to run, fly and rip out of my own skin). I eventually found the term Empathy, and upon further investigation realized that my “explosions” and mood swings were due to both this and the fact that I had not been controlling the energy within me. I was not actively feeding, nor was I doing anything to filter, shield or any such necessities of an empath or psychic/psionic/pranic/energy vampire.

This actually wound up with me seeing a number of professional psychologists/psychiatrist/counselors both in school and outside of, for a number of reasons (because of the family drama/trauma that had gone one, as well as my own instabilities mentally and emotionally – the paranormal experiences and mood swings – I wanted answers, and though I did not get them from the doctors, I felt it was a safe place to try).

Between my brother’s friend, my online friend and the information available to me, I was awakening to my abilities in energy manipulation and to my nature as a Vampire (whether I accepted the term or not)..

I practiced long-distance draws with a number of online-friends I’d made overtime and found that such alleviated my frequent headaches (had a migraine nearly every single day for a year when I was 13) and took the intensity off the mood swings. I began recognizing my auto-feeds (when I’d draw from a classroom, or particular classmate subconsciously) and found 1 classmate particularly interesting in that he would look right at me every once in a while during these draws (though it didn’t help that I was frantic in trying to stop it, and my body and facial language likely gave it away that I was uncomfortable) as if he was aware of what was happening..

It was suggested at some point during this time to try blood, which thankful for my boyfriend of the time, I was allowed to.

Therians & Otherkin

While in that online community, I was also introduced to the subject of Therians and Otherkin. Now, I have nearly always perceived phantom wings throughout my life, and had a very strong fondness and connection with wolves.

Though I did not understand it as anything more than mundane at the time, I expressed this “connection” as a young child (4-8 years old) through dreams (dream shifting), day dreams (fantasizing), role playing in games like “house” – instead of the pet dog, I was a cat or a protective wolf. I also created myself imaginary heros and characters such as Wonder Wolf (a wolf who could communicate telepathically with people, shape shift and fly) I often also pretended to be something of a gryphon having feline & wolf characteristics and wings. Whether separate entities or not, I’ve always felt they all were of the same whole, so expressing it all at once in some hybridized form just made sense to me.

– For the record my favorite animal(s) as a kid were numerous, though the wolf  (and felidae) always stayed in the back of my mind in some way, I personally claimed monkeys, pandas and horses, most frequently, as my favorite animals.-

Anyway, the community I was in had a number of self-identifying therians, to which I took with an open mind and a grain of salt. I loved the friends I made, regardless of what they thought they were. The subject itself I took in the same way, at first, that I did with Vampirism. I kept an open mind, as some things clicked, but at first didn’t think it would apply to me, so I just focused on what I knew, learning one thing at a time.

Around 16 or so is when I started entertaining the thought of possible Therianthropy and/or being otherkin. I began spreading out to other online communities besides the one I’d started on, I learned much more and slowly came to accept myself in this way as well.. I began recognizing more intense, and more frequent, phantom limbs, mental shifts and the like.

Conclusion as of this date.

I currently identify as (though feel my learning process, even 10 years later is not nearly finished) an Empath (though not needed to state I guess), Pranic/Energy/Psionic/Psychic Vampire. Polymorph(ic), Clado-feline & Timber wolf Therian/Otherkin.

The Vampirism is an aspect of my self as is the empathy. The therian/otherkin-ity are all separate creatures but of the same entity (me).

In a sense, I guess you could say I don’t know how or why I’ve come to be a vampire, Never really figured it out that far, though knowing that I am, at least in this life, I just am. I’m comfortable with myself and don’t NEED to know the how or why, just have to live with it as best I can.  Being therian/otherkin is more like having previous lives and those creatures are imprinted upon me as part of my identity, but I never felt, or remember, being such a hybridized form. The wolf, is a typical wolf, as is the Feline. The polymorph, I’m still trying to figure out if it’s truly an identity as an entity or if it was an aspect of me (Is it like the wolf and feline, or is it more like the empathy and vampirism).

My wings seem to be the most interesting, They are completely rooted in who/what I am, but I don’t know how or why. I don’t feel as if my wolf or feline forms have wings, but with the fact I have them, and often (though not always) experience them alongside my shifts and Hunger I wonder if they should.

.. I guess it’s as if, the wolf and feline are the past, they are still me but being human physically they are not at the front, they are a part of me, but as a memory, an impression. I’d love to be them again and feel either would be my “true” form, but the wings are much more strongly apparent. It’s very difficult to explain, I don’t understand it, which makes it that much more interesting…

Lurking Within

First posted online August 11, 2009

 

she stalks…
a silent breath escapes her lungs, gentle mist in the night air.
she’s found her target.
she slowly creeps closer and closer..
she’s invisible. just how she likes it.
closer and closer she creeps.
she pounces.
she attatches herself –
her teeth and nails pierce flesh.
passion comes over her senses, pure adrenaline, instinct and pleasure.
they fall to the ground together.
the soft grass like a bed to rest her head.
the fight is over, she relaxes and takes in the air.
it’s a beautiful night, the sky is clear, the stars shining down.
a breeze gently caresses her.
she feels at peace.
finally, she rests.